I don't know what to do with the thoughts in my head. they are spining to fast for me to keep up. but no matter how hard I try they will not go away. all day long there are little things that reminds me. I don't want to be reminded. I don't want to feel that way anymore. I don't want to cry anymore, to cry useless tears for nothing. I can't turn back time to make it undone. but I wish i could. I wish I've hade the power to remove all the bad feelings. how can you tell yourself that everything will go away, and make yourself believe it. I just wish that my mind would stop bring this thoughts up everytime I start thinking or relax. It's like my brain want me to think of it and not try to forget. but forget, that is what my heart wants. obviously, my brain and my heart doesn't work together. sometimes it is better to only think with your heart and do what you feel is right and not do what is right according to your mind.

I want to dream away in my own fantasy world that no one can find me.