what am I supposed to think about all this? I don't have the words to discribe it. I would like someone to tell me exactly what to say. it seems like everything is falling apart and there is no energy in anyone to fix it. to have courage to walk up to a person that you are afraid to look in the eyes are not easy to do. but you know that its needed. i never felt so alone in fact that i got all these people around me. There is not many people i can trust in this world, but the few is the most wonderful peoples in the whole world. i donät know what to say anymore and i don't have the energy to go through my head and think of the things that going on in my world right now. i donät want to feel alone anymore.